SEPTEMBER 2024
RIP Journal Entries from 09.23.24-09.30.24 Because I deleted this page and didn't back up my data past the 22nd 😭
09.19.24↑
What? A day off?
This one was definitely more productive than the last day off that I had. I actually did a few loads of laundry (I even put away most of it...) and I finally renewed my plates. I ended up just walking there and it was beautiful outside (probably like 22°C and no wind.) The Jeep's tags definitely expired in July, but it hasn't been anywhere recently so...anyways I got the horse car renewed before the end of the month so everything is groovy! My roommate forgot her headphones during her lunch break (she came home for lunch and I ended up making linguine. I occasionally torment her whenever I make pasta by asking if she wants some of my hot noods.) Since the library is just a few blocks away from the courthouse, I ended up taking her bag with me when I went to renew the plates and dropped it off for her.
Somehow, even though I've been here for years, I tragically had never been to the library here before today. It's such a magical place and I regret only just now going there. I finally got a library card and got a book on how to grow a container garden, a book on how to draw faces, and I'm going to read Stephen King's The Shining for the first time. It really is like they say, "Having fun's not real hard, when you've got a library card membership!" Hannah hates when I say that; I think it's hilarious. Afterwards, I stopped at the little library cafe and got myself a strawberry-peach smoothie.
I didn't end up having to go to the musical performance tonight, so I've just gotten to relax a bit. I think this break's been needed for me. I kind of power skimmed over all my music. Work. Musical. Work. Jazz band. Chores. Work. Musical. I'm not even super busy compared to a lot of people in the world, but I want to set up my life to be lazier and just do nothing every once in a while. I liked today.
edit: I almost forgot! When i was doing my laundry today, I was like 30 seconds away from accidentally washing a Werther's Original hardcandy, but it fell out and I noticed it. I think it marks a turnaround in the week. I don't even care that i was sick last week, I got a frickin' Werther's today
09.15.24↑
The horrors persist, but so do I. I continue to be down with the sickness. Today I am somehow stuffy, but runny at the same time. My expired covid tests are still saying it's not covid (surely 100% accurate) and I still don't have a fever. Kind of had a headache today, but always hard to tell if it's just from staring at the computer all day. Whoops.
I finally got around to making my Videogame Library page and I think it turned out pretty well. I probably should have compressed the images a bit. It kind of takes like 7 years for the page to load, but I'm 1000% not redoing everthing. It was kind of a pain in the ass to make because I had to crop the larger photos into smaller thumbnails and type a bunch of links, and rotate images, and blah, blah, blah. It's sad; out of the close to 50 games on there, I've finished probably less than half of them and we've had them for like 2 decades. In the time it's taken me to work on this website, surely I could've knocked one off the list. If I could only buy time in a convenient bottle off ebay or something...
09.14.24↑
Happy Saturday!
Today started out pretty lazy. Yesterday, in a touch of Friday the 13th unluckiness, I seem to have gotten a smidge of a cold. I thought for sure that my gummy vitamins would grant me invincibility, but alas, I ended up skipping a musical rehearsal yesterday to get some rest. Today I slept in until almost 12.
I was bummed on Friday thinking that I would miss this Super Smash Brothers charity event for suicide prevention that I've been looking forward to, but I ended up feeling good enough to go. I wasn't running a fever, had a negative Covid test, and wasn't coughing so hopefully I wasn't spreading anything. They ended up raising over $1100 which is fantastic! Didn't do super great and got knocked out 0-2 :(, but my first match I 3 stocked the person I was fighting the first game and he ended up making top 8 so that counts for something, right? (If that didn't make any sense the cliff notes version is that you fight people with 3 lives, and you play best 2 out of 3. If you lose your best 2 out of 3 match you get sent to the loser's bracket and have another chance, but if you lose a second set you're eliminated. So going 0-2 means I lost my first 2 sets of matches and suck) It was still super fun and I'm glad I went. I feel like I should be better at this game for the number of hours I put into it. Maybe I should find a coach or something. Or not play one of the squishiest characters in the game. I should just remind myself that my skill at a children's party game does not reflect on my self worth. Probably.
Edit: apparently the font I'm using turns the dollar sign into the poke dollar sign. I'm not sure what the current exchange rate is for USD to pokedollar is.
09.08.24↑
I guess I haven't written anything in a few days. What happened today? I woke up with a bit of a headache and with a tickle in my throat, but I guess I was just a bit dry and crusty. Drank some water and coffee and everthing was pretty groovy. Went to a musical rehearsal which was pretty good. Ate a poke bowl. Then I watched the Migration movie which was super cute (it's about this family of ducks that have never migrated because the dad duck was afraid of everything, but they end up going on this grand migration adventure to Jamaica. Really silly. The score was made by the same person that wrote for How to Train Your Dragon.) Then I went for a walk. I saw some dogs. Some flowers. Some ducks. Pet a little black cat. Today was pretty okay. Not a ton of things other people would find interesting, but I'm sure when the times get shitty, I'll think fondly on these super simple days. Oh, my roommate went to some nerd convention and a lot of voice actors for My Hero Academia were there, and she told the voice actor for Eraserhead/Mr.Aizawa that I should cosplay him and he said I could pull it off and needed to. I thought that was pretty neat.
09.05.24↑
So work's been kind of busy. Once upon a time we would freak out when our fill got above 30, but today a coworker went home early with covid and our system decided to go down for 2 hours when we were already 600 behind. We actually got over 1000 in our fill station today. Not sure what our record is, but that's gotta be close. Hopefully my gummy multivitamin comes in clutch and defends me from covid. It's totally gonna work, I can feel it. Just gotta will mmyself to not get sick. Yup. 
The moon when I got off work was a really pretty crescent moon. I feel like my mood seems to be better the further away we are from a full moon. My hypothesis is something with the light affecting sleep. But then again, sometimes I'm up until 3 am whether it's a new moon or a full moon. Let's just blame the moon for everything.
09.04.24↑
Well, I was a little slow to get the ball rolling today. The ball in question rolled much like a giant lead cube. Definitely didn't leave the house until I had a jazz rehearsal at 7pm. Kind of a wasted day off. Nothing important was accomplished.
I did find a cool javascript widget that someone made to make a comment section/guestbook on a site using Google Forms. 
"this comment widget works through google forms/google sheets. it essentially masks a google form as a custom form when the user submits a comment, and to display comments to the user, it accesses the google sheet those form responses are automatically submitted to, pulls the data from it, and formats it onto the page."
Which is a super clever idea.
I'm kind of just a script-kiddie and know like nothing about coding. Wish I had the patience to actually dissect code to know what's going on under the hood of things. I suppose that a lot of people start out just wondering how people did things, opened up the code, and just changed things until they broke, and tried to put it together again. Every pro at something, whether it's drawing, music, coding, building an engine, was just someone who was curious about something and went out of their way to figure things out. Maybe nowadays, we don't let ourselves get bored enough to have a sense of wonder. I've gotten bad about that over the years; why play my instruments when I can spend hours of my day watching someone who's practiced thousands of hours more than I have. I hope I'll give myself more permission to be a bored child who doesn't care about how bad they are at things and just does things for the joy of it.
09.03.24↑
A Tuesday after a Monday holiday feels like a Monday on a Tuesday, but it feels like Friday when you're off on Wednesday which really makes the whole thing feel like a turbo Monday. I shouldnt really complain, but it does make me miss summer vacation and real weekends. It's kind of nice having a random day off in the middle of the week somemtimes, though. Gonna party hard all day tomorrow. And by that I mean do adult things like clean and pay bills and register tags.
Today I accidentally scared the shit out of my neighbor down the street from me. I really want to make a better effort to get outside, so I actually wandered around the neighborhood just walking for like an hour. When I got back to my street, one of my neighbors was pruning her blackberries and I needed to get past her. Not wanting to scare her I threw out a "Hi there!" and it probably gave her a mini heart attack. I'm lucky she didn't stab me with her clippers, but I think I was equally startled by her startledness. Maybe I'll start wearing some jingle bells or wander around with one of them fancy boomboxes bumpin' some sick jams. Or just play my penny whistle like some bard. It was nice being outside though. I should do it more often.
09.02.24↑
Happy Labor Day? In the spirit of Labor Day, I did indeed labor. Luckily we were only open 10-4, but it still felt like a pretty busy day. After work, I kind of just vegged for like an hour or two. I'm really bad about that sometimes. Do people actually doing these blog things on the daily? Am I doing something wrong with life if I have nothing exciting to report at the end of the day? The most exciting thing about today was I made over easy eggs and toast for dinner and had a 75% success rate for unpopped yokes, which isn't too shabby for me!
I also learned what a daikon radish is today from a coworker. Knowledge is power.
09.01.24↑
Yeah, I'm continuing to wonder if I have that whole ADHD/autism two-for-one special. I just spent the entire day making this site. Every once in a while you really just need to take those little personal breaks where you just take the time to do whatever you want, but I guess hyperfixations like this are a common thing amongst the neurodivergent. I'm just not sure if getting an official diagnosis actually would change anything for me. I've always been a bit afraid that I'll commit myself to figuring it out, only to have some pschologist tell me, "You're not autistic or adhd, you're just irresponsible." But despite wasting so much time, I'm really starting to like this little site that I'm making. This is probably the most time I've ever actually worked on a website and it's been a lot of fun.
I guess I did go to a musical rehearsal. Somehow I managed to rope myself into being a substitute for the local theater's production of Camelot the Musical. Earlier this year, the theater pit had a situation where they were having a hard time getting an emergency clarinet player when one of the main musicians had to have surgery, so I got to play with the pit for the first time. Anyways, I get to play with them again playing clarinet, bass clarinet, and maybe even flute. I haven't played a bass clarinet in like a decade, so that will be interesting. I'm really liking it so far, but I definitely need to practice more. (probably what I should have been doing today....)
I did do dishes today, so it's not a complete zero day today, but tomorrow I really need to put more effort into putting away some laundry, cleaning, practicing, and taking better care of myself in general. Need to step it up with the whole self care thing. More sleep+more consistent eating+touching grass and I'll be dangerous. Anyways, it's 1:49 am, so I'd best be logging off. Whoops.